Arkansas CU Camp

Here's some pictures from the Christian Union Camp in Arkansas, where Trevor played music last week. Enjoy.

No pictures

No pictures will be available until I can find a way to get them off my digital camera. I broke Trev's card reader and can't find the cable to connect my camera to the computer. I guess once we clean up the mess in the computer room we MIGHT find it. But until then we will be pictureless.
Sorry everyone.

Weekend Trip

Last week Trevor went to Lawson to work on his dad's deck and then I joined him on Thursday. I had a lot of fun hanging out with the fam and meeting some of Trevor' s old gang. Our good friends the Danners, Justin and Annie, were married on Saturday afternoon in a beautiful but simple ceremony. We even got to hang out with the Knutters and Kirk and Dana Polo. We did however get home at 7:30 this morning and that was not fun. Pictures to follow tomorrow hopefully.

Mistakes

Yes, I messed up again. But this time it wasn't just an error at work it was an error in judgement. A failure to be fully what God wants me to be. I did something that wasn't very nice, and definitely not Christ-like. How can I be more immersed in God's love so I won' t be like this? I need people praying for me. My stress level, my prayer life, my attitude. I covet your prayers because what I have done repels people and doesn't draw them to the Lord. That is why my life must scream, " I love my Christ!" every day, every moment. I can't slip. I must try to fix what I have done but knowing I can't truly fix it. I just have to realize I am not perfect.
"Perfect. I'm not perfect but I know someone who is...." Jesus fix what I can't fix.

Never alone

"Jesus included me, Yes He Included me, When the Lord said whosoever, he included me."


Let's start off with this is not intended to come off as Amanda's pity party. Yes I am alone for three days but its ok. Gives me time to think.
Do you ever have days where you feel like you just don't fit in? I mean I was at church with friends today after I spent time with most of them in the last two weeks.Even hung out with some yesterday. Maybe its my fault. Maybe I don't know how to interact well with others. But I know this is not true since I do so all the time with these very people. Why do I always feel like I don't fit in?
Not really sure the answers to those questions but I am sure that I need to make more of effort to approach people. I need to stop letting the thought enter my head that I am "in the way." Trevor has a knack for this type of interaction. I do not. That is why I have to make more of an effort but also be understanding. I also need to remember to include other people so they don't feel like I feel now.
I pray that the GROW ministry starts to fill in the gaps for people who come in who are like me. I pray that people always feel welcome in Calvary Baptist Church's family. I am just thankful that Jesus included me.

A reminder for myself...an old post from last year....

Through the disappointments and frustrations of the last few weeks, I have to keep coming back to my foundation (I Cor. 3:11). My foundation is my relationship/identity in Christ. I have to stop making excuses and simply BE the woman has called me to be. For example, when a patient is admitted to my group at work, I usually say, "What?" Instead, I should be thinking of this as an opportunity, not an obstacle, even though I was caught up and now I'm not. Unfortunately, in my present state of mind it will take a lot to get me to that point.
But that is simply not what I am. I am called a new name by God himself. I am no longer Deserted nor Desolate. I am married. I am one with God himself. He has made his dwelling in me (I Cor 6:19). God takes delight in me! I am a crown of splendor in the hand of God himself!
I refuse to see these things as "my job." They are miracles disguised as interruptions, frustrations, and otherwise labeled as "problems." I must be like-minded as Christ the great physician. I must let the people come to me, so that I may glorify Him. They will come to me with their complaints, gripes, and needs and I will respond in kindness as He responded to me. I must.